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Part 1, The Next Three Years Of My Life: danluvisiart.deviantart.com/jo…

Part 2, Sell That Damn Book, Danny: danluvisiart.deviantart.com/ar…

Part 3, I Was Not Ready For This: danluvisiart.deviantart.com/ar…

Part 4, Objective: Character and Story Building: danluvisiart.deviantart.com/jo…

PART 5, The Family: danluvisiart.deviantart.com/ar…

PART 6:


WAVES OF DOUBT

I remember this one night I couldn't get anything to work with LMS. I couldn't draw, I couldn't write, I couldn't be creative. I felt trapped, sick to my stomach and had an ongoing feeling of anxiety.

I would get up, walk around, and force ideas. Stupid, uncreative and rushed thoughts. I went upstairs and laid down next to my gf at the time, who was passed out. It had to have been 4 or 5 am, because it was getting light out.

I remember lying there, looking up at the ceiling. What the hell was I doing?

The same thoughts kept on repeating. What if this flops? What if Heavy Metal hates it? What if the audience hate it?

I had a strong following of loyal readers, watchers, and likers. I wouldn't be anywhere where I am today without their support and loyalty. It ranges from DeviantART, to Twitter, Facebook and more.

So I had to make this right. I couldn't phone it in. I wanted to make a book those people above deserved. I wanted to fulfill the quota I promised and not take any shortcuts.

But why couldn't I think of anything? I had to get out.

I had been living in Santa Monica for a year or so now, and felt it was time I exercised the toothpicks I call legs. The next morning I had taken a long walk, about three hours or so. This was a new thing for me; taking walks and listening to music.

I'd listen to a lot of trailer music and electronic. Immediate Music, Two Steps From Hell, NERO, Daft Punk, Justice and Kavinsky.

That was the soundtrack to LMS.

I'd take these walks and just let go of all the bullshit. The drama. The relationship slowly cracking. The bills. The piling debt. This process allowed me to focus on the inspiration and not so much the objective. When I came to that point I could just listen to the music and imagine visuals.

Imagine it like a trailer for a movie. What would you want to see if you could make your own IP? What does your trailer reveal? What story does it tell?

Let your imagination take and create your story for you.

Justice - Stress
www.youtube.com/watch?v=i5S0dk…

I remember listening to this song, which then inspired this LMS fight scene about Gabriel and Abel:

Gabriel in a club fighting against Abel's security. Allister watches.

Then I'd take that idea and go, well, why does Gabriel need to do that?

Listen some more.

Maybe Abel is testing him.

For what?

To train him.


Now I know the factor of Abel's life. Why he's important.

This process helped clear a lot of road blocks during the creative side of things. It's a work-flow I suggest a lot to people.

But there's a dark side to this factor. Soon those walks became every day, twice a day, sometimes three times a day.

Started working so much that I began losing sight of things, such as bills, my health and the relationship between my gf and I.

I didn't have time for anything. Barely spoke to my family, because I was so busy either working on either LMS or DC Comics or Universal's Your Highness.

I became addicted to the craft and it stopped turning into a hobby and more of a job. I became obsessed with the characters, with who they were, what they would wear, eat, watch or what weapon they'd use.

So many weapons, costumes, cities, side stories, advertisements,looks, styles, trailer-ideas. Every single fucking day I would think about WHAT makes this book WHAT it is.

I had to stop and relax. Take a breath or something that didn't involve the letters L M S. I was now giving myself anxiety and losing the focus of what brought me here in the first place.

And then I remembered what my dad once told me. He was always hard on me, it was the way he was raised. His father had passed when he was young, thus forcing him to help take the mantle and provide for his family. He's always been a strong worker, never gives up, never backs down, and doesn't take shit from anyone.

He keeps to himself, stays humble and modest, and does what he has to for his family. We butted heads from time to time when I told him what I wanted to do. He was looking out for me, but we didn't see eye-to-eye sometimes. But I'll never forget what he said to me this one time:

"Every day you're resting on your craft, someone else is catching up to you."

Goddamn he was stubborn, and I guess I got it from him.

Back to the drawing board.
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Oceli Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Wow That is creepy. I also imagined that the soundtrack to LMS would be Two Steps From Hell 
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JameytheHedgehog Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Student General Artist
I wish I had the time and attention span to read all these now. If nothing else, I've got more fresh inspiration to keep doing what I'm doing.
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ZarieoZ Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Those 6 parts were pure beauty. Seeing this process, not only the evolving of your characters but the evolving of you as well, in character & personality. That was just epic. Like a story within a story. Glad I took the time to read it, time not wasted, in fact the best time I had in a long time.
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JazzSiyArt Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I like this. Hearing not just the success story, but the trials behind it is really moving.
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Dualmask Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2013   Digital Artist
Such great reads, all these entries...I'm getting older and starting to feel like the creative world is leaving me behind, and then I read that quote at the end of this entry and it was like a punch in the face. I have to get back to work and start improving again...thanks for telling your story. Can't wait for the next part.
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OmriKoresh Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Professional General Artist
i think i like this part the most (:
can't wait for some new stuff!
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PatrickGavin Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013
You have motivation and dedication to match your incredible skill, I am delighted and inspired to see the success you're now deservedly achieving, your work and journey has gone along way to inspiring me with my own work and story telling, keep bringing the awesome!
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Mazorzarch Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Can't sleep,,, so I am finally sitting down and reading all of them (1-6 currently), and I want to read them again. Maybe even print them out to read when I'm out and about.
You could even write a short book that is kind of like a self help / motivational book if you keep this up, which I hope you do. I'd buy it, even if it's the same stuff you have written here, to support a good guy, haha.
Don't stop, and don't stop believing in yourself. :)
Pardon the bad Miro, I'm on my phone...
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legomaestro Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Moar plz
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THECOOLGEEK Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thanx for sharing this Dan, just what I needed to hear. Keep up the awesome work :)
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